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there is little to tell about the now. in a small balance between anger, sadness, and rejection, I think understanding melancholy only pushes to silence and the rules of connection. these are few, to attract a woman requires genetics or money, or both, and some kind of statistical probability.
youth also helps to give protection and security.
yesterday may have been better, tomorrow may be better.
it's the night of the most fun holiday I like to reminisce about, Samhain.
from the dusk of the millennial nights to the liminal celebration. not to be in one place or another. And again I pronounce that name so old, so old... because, in the end, someone else did not appear after that trip of adolescence where the millennium was ending.
2023, Samhain night, again. will I be back in the next solar cycle?

wait

you have been here for some time, in my thoughs, I just wonder if you will be a mother, will you listen to the heartbeat coming out of your womb.

it's just an idea thrown into the fabric of all goddesses. unintentionally, just thinking about the clouds of your feet, the white lines of your hips, the honesty of your smile, and how everything would work, if you want it to, being born of you as a mother, dawn understood of love. your natural love towards your children. 

a beautiful girl, a beautiful boy. happiness and plastic from your sounding veins. if you want it and you can. you will be a beautiful and wise mother.

dreams coming

I had a dream where I didn't make it to my enrolled class because it had crossed with work. in fact, I was never going to make it, because I had another responsibility already set at that time, and I would miss out on learning in that class, on meeting my classmates and whoever was dictating. and I would fail, and all that goes with it. I had that dream.

it's a dream I've had several times in my life. and sometimes it repeats itself.

and what I know because I have studied the science of dreams, is that it means that there are things that I want to do, that's why I enrolled, but they intersect with previous tasks and responsibilities and I can't do them. so, it's a sign of my frustration, of not being able to do everything I would like to do because I have things to fulfill and accomplish. then life goes in those responsibilities and there are crossroads where I have to let go of what I would like to do because I don't have the time, the strength, the dedication. it's hard to let go. it's hard not to do everything. it's hard. and today I can say that learning the science of dreams is something new.

I also think that there is no such thing as a life purpose, which is very selfish. There are tendencies and abilities, but the truth is that there is nothing pre-established. I will keep thinking about it, this Wednesday holiday. see you soon.

begin CV of failures

do you have your dreams or don't you dare to dream them? 

there is this belief of horror that is having high expectations, and that generates frustration. instead, creativity and I make the decisions, and you: fear, will be somewhere close by. I know you won't leave, but you won't be at the wheel anymore. Nevermore.

long live and prosper to boldly go where no man has gone before. always epic and hope, the heart within me.

Sinéad O'Connor d.e.p

In 1992, after breaking the Pope's photo, Sinéad sings at Madison Square Garden in a tribute. The crowd booed her and stopped her from singing. She draws the strength of a lioness, between pain and rage she sings with dignity until the end, looking at her executioners. And she withdraws to the side, where she breaks.

She is a heroine for me, an incredible woman who suffered a lot. Justice and peace be with your courageous heart, Sinéad!