31/1/23

Trance tísico

En la cruda y directa enfermedad, te detienes en un rito por las cruces de tu diagnóstico. Ya no tienes salud, se ha ido de tu presente saltando los límites de tu piel. Entonces, todo el universo que construyes ahora, gira en torno a los procesos de las consultas, exámenes, placas, tomografías, laboratorios, medicación y programas del Estado. 

Mi, tu, el... corazón palpita en un pulso sentimental, vestido con guantes blancos y luces azules, entregado a un ritmo de animosa matemática. Los valores de tu sangre y las manchas geométricas de tu pulmón, serán indicadores de lo que tu cuerpo puede hacer y reconstruir.

Cómo dicen, eres un cuerpo roto dentro de un cohete al firmamente, durante el conteo de las noches y las transmisiones radio estelares. Es el inicio del camino de la sanación. Miel de gato, néctar de colibrí.  Tengo tuberculosis, y por meses haré un camino, entre no caminos de arena y tos. Imaginar el salvajismo de tu enfermedad puede ayudar a entender al mounstruo que te acecha, y verte también como el niño en ese contexto. No soy yo, no soy la enfermedad. Soy yo en este momento. Con calma y fe que avanzaré. 

Es una relación en desequilibrio, lo sé, pero en donde elijo buscar la armonía en lugar de la lucha y la huida. No hay escape, tampoco bienestar, pero si paz dentro de la destrucción en cenizas, para volar fenix. Eso veo en el momento del reposo que trae el silenciamiento. Y en ese estado físico, la mente conecta con las burbujas de sonido que generan un  nuevo orden. Lados entre lados, puntos de vista para conseguir logros. Día a día, señor en poder, hijo urbano soplando al pulmón.

31/12/22

Nine to twelve

Te extraño mucho
fuiste mi primer abrazo del año... sentido, hondo, en cercanía.
Agradecido a ti, bella mujer. Gracias por tanto océano de amor.
¡Espero verte en mis sueños, mamá!

Poetry is sad.

30/11/22

Berlin wall

I think of the exact point where I could be more human. I remember this bromance between two Hollywood actor pals, named Keanu and River, uneducated beings who defended nature, cats, and the kind and simple life. an example of the beauty of union in the face of the unpredictable ups and downs of living on a planet of chaos. A magical coincidence to counteract the impact of my fragility, like sentimental dreams between robots and malice. 

oh how much you can stay!

come back, come back, and give me that hug I'm waiting for so long!

the chemicals that constitute me. the chemistry that lies within me. they are both the magnet I possess between the appearance of sweet dreams and regenerative chocolate. 

like a hope, born of a child who wanted to understand the world, who wanted to meet someone and know so much about her and everything, but failed. I failed. in the midst of the astral strike. and I am left with the treasure of dreaming of you or thinking of you in silence, and watching the sky sounding like music. thinking that there is a shirt that can represent a beach, a pair of pants a Parisian park at night. a hat that is morning light in a hotel room that was paradise in the dawn hours.

I will love you, but I will never speak to you again!
I feel if I am strong enough. dream magic.

How much I pray that even if you never come back, you feel these words, and this energy comes.

I will love you, but I never speak to you again!

I feel that if I really belong. dream magic. 

They say it's 7 years you will carry my energy, there are 6 left until it dissolves me. with all the eternal love, seconds, and dreamlike ether. Gods of love, I believed them, I felt it. I met love, though she rejected me. Young comrade, under the sky of Russia and Japan.

31/10/22

guiding forever

On the mountain full of gemstones I could see the poverty of my bones, the skinniness of my fingers, and the uncomfortable gap between my skin and his jewels. Mounted convinced, invincible of yellow days and a puncture in my temples. From my cheeks I heard the whine enunciated by my lonely face, rising up my hunched neck. Oh curvature of discs and spine of this strong and movable neck that supports me. 

I sensed the death of my spirit, but also the old age of being chained to a destiny of stones upon tides. Like the weather at the end of the month, there is a lot of fun music but also space for solitude. 

The call for a new beginning for the morning after, the closing eclipse of this 31st night. 
Ghosts over Genesis of all the choices we made.

Enough for the spirit of the skies that is wide, like blue solitude, and the place of tears in silver bubbles. For the steel rings and colored stones I wear, it is but a ritual. That I must weave to win and live on.

In all directions I begin and end, I come and go.

I am Russian superstition, the sale of a red bear, who wears jewelry and weapons, and who in the steppe feels a subtle headache while eating pizza and watching the sky of auroras.
State of peace. I am the destiny of a white hand, small and mystical. I believe in stars and angels, in stones and gamma rays. I am Russian superstition.

29/9/22

electro-p

Wait.
moves, 
wave your hand, 
as if wanting to detach you from nails, skin, fascia and opportunities for evolution.
I look at my thin fingers and would like them thicker.
I would like to carry the banner of liberation. 
like a yellow cat, leaping over a plain of winds and comrades.
It is a moment where I can say every morning, today will be a wonderful day, and wow do I paint to the sky that belief.
I say it to myself and I do it fast.
I am and feel times of connection with what I must be to create meaning in my life.